i'm at a fork in the road
i think i'm on the verge of losing my best friend... i've been good friends with him since 8th grade and we've dated more than once... now that we are broken up it is very hard for us to remain just friends because there have always been other feelings between us... i care about him so much but i know he doesn't treat me right... at this point our relationship is unhealthy and i'm afraid the only solution is to no longer be friends... but i don't know if i can do it... he's played a big role in my life and i love him very much... but he is trying to get his life together right now and it's causing a lot of confusion and heart break on my part and i don't know if i can allow myself to be put through that anymore... if only i could make people understand how i feel right now but i can't... there are too many other peices to the puzzle... there are things that i can't tell people on account of others getting hurt... and so i'm left here to sulk in my own self pitty... i just wish i could find someone that when they say that they care about me they mean it... i haven't found that person yet... i'm stuck at this fork in the road and i don't know which way to go... if only life weren't so confusing